R.I.P My sweet Darling! <3
I miss you so so much.. you're my everything.
And i dont know what to do without you.. You were the light in my life.
The one i talked to when i was feeling sad...
I dont knoww how much i can take without you by my side...

Lackie I Love You So Much My Sweet Sweet Baby! <3


* 2007-11-07
+ 2009-09-09

090904

I love him...
so fucking much, I acually don't know what to do anymore.
I can't live without him. It feels like my life is nothing without him.
I hate feelings!! I really hate them right now.
Why do i have to love him? why do he have to be the sweetest guy in this entire world.
Why do he has to be the perfect boy i know.
And why do i have to love him?

I dont wanna love him. I dont wanna feel like this. I wanna feel something else.
With someone else. I know that he dosen't wanna be with me in the same way that i wanna be with him. I really wanna move on. But I can't.. My feelings are way to strong.

I love him with all of my heart. And i really don't know what i should do?
right now i just wanna kill myself so this feelings could stop.

I'll never get rid of these feelings.
I gave him my heart 13 months ago.. he still has it. And i know that he's gonna have it for a really long time.. Maybee for a eternity...

Please just give us a chance... i can't ask for more...i really cant.. this is the only wish i have.. the only thing i'm dreaming of.. to be with you. For a life time. Cause you are the one i wanna be with, the one i wanna live with.

I'm nothing without him...

i dont wanna move on..

Time will make you forget me, but time will make me love you more than before..<3 I love him. So fucking much... I acually dont know what to do without him.. I can't breathe without him, I can't think of a life without him.. He's been my entire life and the love of my life for over a year now.. And my feelings are as strong now as they were the day i met him.. And i know that it won't be easy to forget him. And start over, i dont want to start over. All i want is to start over a life with him, to be a part of his life.. I can't get over him, cause i don't wanna get over him. My love for him are so strong.

All i want is another chance with you, another chance to happiness<3

fuck....

I can't believe it....
it can't be true.. she can't be gone... :'(
It feels like my whole world is turning upside down...

My aunt is dead.....
She was the one i loved the most...
and she leaved me..... :'(

Why didn't you take me with you..?
I wanna be with you, wanna be there you are...

so...

Soo.. i've been at oskars place for like three days now...
i acually think i could accept just to be friends with him.. ^^
Although i do love him.. alot...
well anyway, last night at like 10 p.m we went out with his car, and he was driving soo fast :D and it was so fun ^^ hahah..
And then we went upp to "stadsparken" it's a place with the most beautiful view, over all of jönköping.. and they have animals.. and i loooove animals :P
and then we "played" at the kids playpark:D hahah... it was fun.. and then after like 2 hours we went back home to his place...

and now i'm home and i'm going to clean my room soon... and clean in my rats cages too...
my adorable babies <33

And then i'm going to watch some movies! <3
And i hope i'll talk to Oskar at msn later at night too.. <3
Because we're probably maybe is going to the cinema a day pretty soon...
So i want to decide something.. but we'll see :P

Maybee i'll write again tonight...<3

xxx

090724

So this is my new blog, although i still have my swedish blogsite.
But because i have a few friends that speaks english i thought i could have a blogsite in english.
Ofcourse everyone can read it ^^

I'm really hungry now :P
But i think that we're going to eat soon. :)

And the summer is soon over, and i haven't been like tanned at all, almost.. maybe a little...
well i hope that the sun comes up soon. So i can go out and get tanned ^^

I'll write soon again :)

xxx